Bring Back Those Loving Feelings!
I am not a person who holds regrets about what I should have done or shouldn’t have done… holding onto the belief that everything is happening with divine timing helps me relieve the old pattern of “shoulding” on myself. You know the loop of “Oh, I should have done this… “ Or “I shouldn’t have done that.” But, in hindsight I do wish I could have a “do over” for one part of our family creating journey. My “mulligan” would be to go back and really cherish the intimate moments of being a family of two. I would not change any part of our journey to create our family because in doing so I would change the ending, but if some magical fairy came down and said for an hour I could go back in time and do over a moment of Mark and I being just “Mark and I” I would jump at the opportunity and I’ll tell you why. It was a process to create our family in which I changed and grew. We had our bumps and bruises and strong words and loud gasping crying spells but there were also moments in it that were amazing. The recognition that our unconditional love was supporting each of us during the speed bumps. At the end of the day, facing what we were facing, we were there for each other not matter what. So, within that magic moment granted to me by that little sparkling fairy, I would go back and hold the joy, that those perhaps overlooked moments of support, were giving and call back the “crazy in love” phase of our relationship. Remember that crazy in love phase? You can’t wait to be with each other, your heart skips a beat, your palms sweat a bit, you get goose bumps from your partner’s touch. I am not saying that those romantic love side effects didn’t occur during our journey, they did, but they were not my focus. My focus was on the task at hand!! So, how about this? How about you don’t wait for the process to be completed for your family, how about for today you “see an opportunity and grab it,” set your intention to “bring back those loving feelings” and cherish the moments of being a family of two by creating and remembering this amazing aspect of your relationship. ~~~ February 27, 2010, 1:00-2:30pm Description: Leave a Reply |