Calla & Kevin

Calla & Kevin's Story:

52 blood draws, 30 ultrasounds, multiple failed medicated cycles and IUI’s, an IVF egg retrieval and 3 embryo transfers to get to him. 3 years of scary thoughts, but more importantly, 3 solid years spent dreaming of him every single day. There were many times we cried in each other’s arms thinking he would never be here. We couldn’t accept that. I knew he would be here someday because I already loved him so much. I’ve loved him long before he existed. I’ve loved him all my life.

I documented some big moments from IVF but for some reason, I never documented the other years of trying. The failed medicated cycles and IUI’s - so I have no pictures of that. When I scroll through my pictures all I see are the happy times my husband and I went through. The truth is, we were fighting so hard to find those happy moments. We never swayed from each other and it only brought us closer together, but life was much harder to tolerate because we couldn’t have a baby. We had so many negative thoughts. A few times I actually told Kevin I wanted him to divorce me so he could be with a woman who could give him a baby. Of course, he wouldn’t do that but I definitely felt like I was bringing his life down a path that he didn’t sign up for.

In the beginning, they called our situation “unexplained infertility” but eventually I was diagnosed with PCOS through ultrasound. Kevin had no problems on his end so I definitely believed my body had failed me. When we made the decision to move to IVF it actually didn’t work the first 2 times either. I really thought we just drained our entire savings for nothing. We were told to try one more time then move to exploratory surgery. That’s when I became pregnant with our miracle baby boy.

Baby Calvin was born on July 25th, 2020 and since then I have yet to close my eyes (and not from lack of sleep). I believe that being a Mom has always been a part of me, hidden inside of me - but now it’s awake. I have finally been put together with all the right pieces and I am so thankful for everyone at CNY Fertility for helping our dream come true. I still can’t believe I have a baby. Every single second of pain was worth it to be filled with this much joy!

Helpful resources Calla & Kevin found:

CNY Fertility support group and other groups on Facebook.

Hope, Inspiration and Advice:

To anyone who is going through this currently-my advice for you is to NEVER give up if it’s something you really want. I may be changed from the journey but I would go through absolutely anything in the world for this baby, and I know you would too.

To quote Theodore Roosevelt, “Nothing in the world is worth having or worth doing unless it means effort, pain, difficulty…I have never in my life envied a human being who led an easy life. I have envied a great many people who led difficult lives and led them well.”